My Walk with Consciousness!
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Deepak Chopkra Day #3 Mind, Matter, Spirit
I get home late and I have the intense surge to look up my good friends name on Google. I did not know why, but after the second page of her name I seen something so PROFOUND about her situation that she has been agonizing for since 2007! There is a BREAKTHROUGH here! It was something that she has been telling AUTHORITIES for years and nobody believed her or care... I am so blessed to be able to share information with her and its 1:30am!... So I FB her and I left her a voice mail! ...
I pray that by morning this would be the best news she has heard ALL her LIFE! I want to be a part of that REJOICING!... May God see her through the rest of the process! God love her!
ABUNDANCE LOVE is the TOPIC! LOL!
So these are the answers to my questions after the meditation that I did this morning!
"Today, I focus on what I want to ATTRACT in my life!" ~~ In a strange way I did attracted it... not only for the friend above, but for another friend today... God is good!
Question #1 Do you live your life from a place of abundance or lack?
I often have lived my life from a place of lack... That is changing since I have been actively meditating for close to 2 1/2 years. Over the last two weeks I've been working on focusing on the blessings and not the lack. I need to live from the place of ABUNDANCE!
Question #2 What messages about ABUNDANCE did you receive in your childhood?
As a child I did not get negative messages that I can recall about abundance. The typical money doesn't grow on trees ... or you have to work HARD for your money are the messages that I remember.
What new expectations for a RICH and ABUNDANT life can you CREATE now?
The rich and abundant life that I can create right now is the abundance of love! Love others! Give Love! Allow Love to be Given to Me! ... and just Love everyone!... With the understanding that the only thing that heals, fixes, transforms, rejuvenates, and changes anything is LOVE. To stay focused on this and not on what I don't have. To know that the love I have transmitted is so abundant it reached as far as Washington State, Africa, and Japan. So to realized that I am ABUNDANT in my circumstances. I must let this LOVE and LIGHT shine BRIGHT!
Please use this section to reflect on today's session:
Those things that I believe I don't have right now.... I really do have them. It does not have to be in front of me for me to know that I have it. I am my children's mother no matter if they are with me now or not. Being their mother is something that would never change. Because I am not there at the present time does not change the REALITY that I am their mother... then, now, and always... And can't no one ever change that! I feel blessed that I was LOVED so much! I feel blessed that their father's NEEDED that part of my LOVE so much, that they took the only thing they could to remind them of ME! The GREAT ME! The one that they try to hurt, but God is so good! As I see transformations in others I know that the transformations will also be there for me! My love meant so much to these fathers and I have compassion and empathy for whatever it is that had made them who they are and why they did the things they did. MY LOVE had grounded them and continues to ground them via my children (and they should not be used as tools, but they were/are). Now it is time for me to reap MIRACLES. I am asking my Angels, Guardians, Guides, God, and Earth to provide these men with what it is that they were draining from me all these years and to help them realize that what they have done was not right, but it was okay for that time! But I ask my God's to move it in their SPIRIT that once Earth, Angels, Gods, Guides, Guardians provide them with that pure LOVE that they felt the need to take from me via my children. To either stay connected, stay with God spirit or whatever reason that now is the time to cut the cord! It is time to return what was stolen/taken from me. I decree that this is done! I expect miracles TODAY!
A day or two ago a vision that I had was that my daughter and I were raking Source Energy and raking what we needed from the SEA of INFINITE possibilities! it was an awesome vision during meditation!... Absolutely beautiful!
Question to MY readers:
If someone got the blessings that you have been hoping for how would you feel?
What would you say?
What would you think?
Please share your comments below... Thanks! JBONTZ
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Change... ( I wrote this and never published it last week) Part I
It is inevitable in life that we desire & deserve change ! It is the desires of every human being to desire change. Yet, there are quite a few of us who desire to do the changing. Few who desire to do the work or the actions required to make change manifest in their life. Few that make it a conscious effort to EFFECT that change.
It takes a lot of work! A lot of action! A lot of time! Even giving ourselves TIME to meditate or pray takes willingness of TIME. Journals is another way....telling our story (from a healing perspective, not a blaming perspective, or woe is me attitude) is another way. CHANGE takes COURAGE.. CHANGE takes a HUMBLE spirit.
The problem when we desire change is that we usually demand that change to be in someone or something else. We don't look at ourselves and demand change of ourselves. We think that it is the 'RESPONSIBILITY' of others in our circles to change. Whether that be family circle, community circle, or a world circle. WE BELIEVE it is everyone else's responsibility.
When we realize that change does only work in opposition of that mentality then we will truly feel BLESSED with the affect of change.
Ghandi said it best... "Be the change you wish to see in this world."
And why is that so effective?
It is so effective, because for so many reasons and barriers (real ones or perceived ones) people are hesitant to change... People may lack humbleness, courage, speech, faith, etc... Many things can BLOCK someone from CHANGING... BUT if they see that one... That one that has overcome fear, the one that has overcome rejection, the one that has overcome bigotry, hatred, pain, etc.... When they see that ONE change... Then and only then may they be SPARKED to CHANGE themselves.
Anyone of us could BE that ONE--- We must transform our perspective because you could BE that ONE!
Taking the FIRST STEP! HOW TO KNOW WHAT NEEDS TO CHANGE?
We are all mirrors to one another --usually what you want CHANGED in another person is really what you need to CHANGED about yourself.
Yet here's what WE do... We go about with venom, anger, living in a world of deception that
#1 someone else must change in order for you to be happy
#2 for you to love them they must change
#3 for you to care for them, they must change
#4 for you to treat them right, they must change
#5 for them to be worthy, they must change
#6 for them to stop frustrating you, they must change
#7 for your life to be in bliss, they must change
#8 for your life to work out (together), they must change
#9 for the partnership to grow, they must change
#10 for your sanity, they must change ... etc etc.
Your venom will kill you and the other person whom you are trying not just to change, but to CONTROL!... This has and will always defeat the purpose of all them wonderful things that you claim you desire. Which most likely falls into any variations of the Fruits of the SPIRIT...Peace, Love, Harmony, Tranquility, Goodness, Self-Control, Justice, Loyalty, Freedom, Patience, Mildness, Kindness, Trust, Truth, and most of all Non-Judgement.
WE all have (thankfully so-- a gift from the CREATOR) FREE WILL.With that also comes self will... Which we are seldom taught about for various reasons. The beauty of self will is to allow others to be whom they are and to embrace whom they are.
At best all we can do is send peace, love, and light when they are in character (wearing mask) other then what the CREATOR of the WORLDS intended for them to be. IF they happen not to be or come from Great Source, you must still send Peace, Love, and Light to them. Just like day overshadows night and night the day... So must we BE! ... Nothing can kill darkness but the light of Great Source (and interestingly enough WE ALL have that gift). You have had experiences when you or someone else enters a room, and the rooms energy literally lightens up... Spiritually and Emotionally... And you Change the environment without ever even knowing what was going on before you got there.
Change is manifested WHEN you decide to CHANGE how you RESPOND -- whether it be *internally, mentally, physically, emotionally, & spiritually. *Internally meaning controlling your thoughts & feelings primarily.
Eventually practicing a few princples like meditation, like law of attraction, like consciously redirecting thoughts (that may have been controlling in nature) and response (that used to be REACTIONS) others will see the CHANGE. in you and inevitably will change as well because your LIGHT (enlightment) has shined! Your TRUE SELF has manifested! The Light of the Great Source overcomes ALL obstacles... and relationships CHANGE for the Better!
Challenge yourself today! Pick out one thing that you have been struggling to get someone else to change... Then get up and change it yourself. Example: Clearing a cluttered shelf or a,cluttered mind, or negative thoughts? Negative words? Then describe how you feels/felt when it was completed-- When you did it yourself?
Please share your thoughts in the comments section....
Day #2 with Deepak -The Source of All Abundance
My son was jumping all over me. He would not sit still even though in the past he would sit and meditate with me. This day and the days that followed I realized that Deepak's voice is like Hannibal Lecter and my son did not like his voice. hahahaha! This should not have been a surprise because he kept asking who is that or what is his name. Although he does not know Hannibal Lecter, I do, and his voice is pretty scary, at least from a child's perspective.
Another time when I tried to attempt this meditation I fell asleep! So my subconscious got the message but me... I just did not get it.
On the third try I did it with my husband, but again my son was a bit of a distraction, but we got through it.
Okay! So here are the answers to the questions that were asked to be recorded in the Journal.
What do you believe is the source of abundance?
I believe that the source of all abundance is the Great Source. The Great I Am. The God that allows us to have whatever we summon; anything & everything we desire in a timely constructive manner.
What do you feel limits abundance in life?
What limits abundance in my life is that I want to pick and choose who to love! My love often has had conditions applied to it (not much different then most people I know), and that is not the type of love Great Source wants us to give. Some of us place higher or greater conditions then others, but to some extent most of us place some degree of conditions. The I love you "if/when" syndrome. I love you "because" of what you do/did for me, or when/if you do this.
Our love must be unconditional! When we may have issues with person(s) is when we need to take those people and hold them in true Light. Love them in spite of what issues, controversy, confusion or pain they bring you! Love them because they are the manifestations of what you need at that time to make you a better person! They are put in your path to make the BEST you! The you God intended. So love them in spite of.
Now that does not mean that we let others walk all over us. It does not mean we stay in abusive relationships. It also does not mean we abuse people because we are frustrated with them. It does not mean we tolerate it. It means love them unconditionally from a distance. Pray that Great Source can provide them with the what ever is needed for them to make them the BEST them they can be.
In my walk with consciousness, I am starting to see that compassion is an extreme way to show love. Compassion is something expressed with understanding that we don't know what that person had to endure to get to the point that they are the way they are. When we have compassion, I believe this is the type of love that all the great ones understood and were able to love all people unconditionally.
How can you remove any obstacles in your consciousness that stands between you and abundant life?
To remove any obstacles in my consciousness I need to do a few things.
#1 I need to do is to continue to meditate daily (a few times a day preferably).
#2 In my meditation I must set my intentions.
#3 I must envision the life I want to be and have.
#4 I must also forgive. I must forgive the wrong doings of others and the wrong doings of myself. In that I must also make time to forgive myself for wrong doing that I have done to myself.
Whether perceived or real there are things that we must heal in our beings in order to BE, and to manifest that abundance that we desire to have. Whether that be abundant love, fun, money, joy, happiness, children, etc. We need to release these stronghold in order to achieve abundance. Its like dropping off old clothing at a donation site, because they don't fit us anymore, or we don't have any use for them anymore, or they hold memories that we must are too much for us. We are attached to these strongholds and it is difficult so we much challenge ourselves with the question--Is our desire to have abundance greater then the desire to hold on to the past?
Can you list things, people, places that you have held in a not-so-good place (and for good reason)?
Can you for 5 minutes that you love them? (even if you have to pretend--pretend it for 5 minutes...
What does it look like? feel like? sound like?
Get in touch with the unimaginable... and imagine it!!! It is in your thoughts that realities of the physical world are manifested!
Friday, November 9, 2012
Day #1 with Deepak... The Reality of Abundance
Abundance means more then enough love. Love that is so great that he needs to be shared with other people. Love that is so large it is expands across the United States. Unconditional and unexplainable love. The type of love the has no words that would actually get close to describing it. Love that includes acceptance of all that is and all that was, and all that will ever be. A love with no judgement. A love that is transformative, a love that forgives, a love with no regrets. A love that washes away pain, a love that washes away confusion, a love the washes away pain, sadness, depression, anger, frustration, fear, and a harded heart. To me that is abundance... It is all that I desire to be and to receive...
In what areas of your life do you feel most abundant?
Right at the moment I feel most abundant in my ability to connect with GREAT SOURCE and seeing where I fit, and my duty to this world and my purpose. I know that one day all of what I am and all that I am to be by Gods grace will be so transparent to those that mean to see me expand and do great things and even those that mean harm to come BEAR WITNESS that I am Gods child and I fulfilled His duty. No matter how little or big others want to see from me... Little failures or big failures or even little greatness or big greatness ! I will fulfill my lifes purpose and be proud... And GOD will say "Well done my blessed daughter, WELL DONE!"
What would make you feel more abundant in all areas of your life? Forgiveness.... To myself ... To forgive others... And others to forgive me... That will make me feel most abundant! There is FREEDOM in FORGIVING and FREEDOM in ACCEPTING FORGIVENESS! Mostly to FORGIVE MYSELF...
Reflection of today's meditation session:
Todays meditation session inspired me to write for 21 days to those whose life choices have directly impacted my life. These people mean so much to me. It inspired me to blog my 21 day experience and to write some my youngest daughter. It also reminded me that my children are never far from me and to NEVER doubt it. To know that WITHOUT a DOUBT, because they are in my heart and noone can ever take that away from MY HEART. The heart is the sacred place to the spirits in a sacred place to my soul. My children are forever connected to me no matter the circumstances. I challenge myself to remember this. "She always wanted to be with you... You know that!" It was one of the very first visions/meditations that I had ever experienced.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Get in Line!
In addition, I had sat down after this and the had the alter call to come be "saved," which I have always been hung up on, and had not necessarily believed that I was not saved. I know that I have been saved, but this was different. I felt the need to RECONNECT to a 'FAMILY' to a place that has shown me so much love and support in the last year. Especially after I felt COMPLETELY ABANDONED by those whom I felt should never have abandoned me. At this place of worship, even when I have had issues and complaints, they have never been judgmental. This is the true example of God and God servants.... So I did it! I stood up to REDEDICATE my life to the Lord!... My God, The One and Only!...who has saved me already. I felt at peace, I felt loved, I felt like giving love and showering others with love... I blessed those who cursed me and I felt Free!...
You can serve Source (God) from anywhere....
We get so hung up on Labels that we miss the blessings that the Universe has for us. We should have a home sanctuary, where we fellowship, and serve the community from that "home base" per se, but we never give up who we REALLY are and WHAT WE truly believe. In other words, we don't have to compensate one belief, because we chose to embrace another task, goal, person, place, thing. Life is too short to cut ourselves off from the LOVE and BLESSINGS that we have surrounding us on a regular basis. I am destined to walk this path with dignity, faith, honesty...
Don't ever negate everything that you have learned... and keep expanding your knowledge of Self and of God, Love, The Almighty, Allah, Jah, or any other name we call the great UnSeen...
Irregardless of what, we must also recognize the love of the servants, and of the prayer warriors, the smiles and the encouragement from whence we see our greatest servants! This purity surpasses the names of any "religion"... It is the Religion of Love... We must embrace it and "GET IN LINE!"
Have you ever felt that you were compromising one thing in order to gain acceptance from another?
Have you ever thought (or can you now see) that if we get rid of our judgments about things that were taught to us (that we learned from others rather then learning from experience)... That we can be TRULY FREE?
Did this Blog help you understand FREEDOM or PEACE?
What topics would you like to hear about or have me write about?...
Thanks in advance for your participation!
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Some days it feels like "BLAH!'
I feel like nothing is happening, yet I don't feel at total peace! I feel like I have to do something and do more. Strangely it doesn't manifest there is nothing I feel I need to do or nothing more that can be done... At least not at the present time.
I should pick up a book or reflect on a good quote, that usually gets things going consciously. But instead I find myself doing tons of other things that gets in the way of my conscious walk. The time flies by too. Like its already Wednesday.
Its an awesome day! I see my blessed daughter on Wed. for 1 hour.... Sadly it's the only hour I get physically! Its the day that gets me over the hump... The visits are getting better but when they do the time also flies by way too quick!...I know that source has a better plan for me and my children. This can't possibly be the way our story ends. My sister, niece, nephew, and son came to the visit today... I want to manifest change in this circumstance, but how can I? I ask myself these questions.
I believe what we ask we are given... BUT then the doubt does play a huge blockage in my mind because I concern myself with the "HOW?"... My main concern is to keep manifesting in my thoughts what I want and to never worry about the how... Let the universe take care of the "HOW?"... That's what the UNIVERSE (SOURCE) is good at doing.
I have an opportunity to change this, but it will not manifest unless I let go.
Let go of what?
I have to let go of barriers, hatred, betrayal, mistrust, unfaithfulness, UNWORTHINESS (this is a BIG ONE for me), sadness, moping, and doubt.
There are challenges that we all must face when we are facing a life of BEING and MANIFESTING our life's DESIRES.
So my questions to my readers are:
#1. What challenges do you face when you are becoming BEINGS and attempting to MANIFEST your desires? or better yet how do you (have you) over come your challenges?
#2. What do you have to let go of?
#3. What books, manuscripts, or teachings have helped you along the way?
#4. What are your favorite quotes when you feel "BLAH?"...
Happy reading! JBONTZ
Monday, October 15, 2012
FEAR & GOD can not occupy the same breath!
I re-learned yesterday that FEAR and GOD/LOVE cannot occupy the same BREATH! That being said… I must be conscience to only speak the truth, love, and light… Fear no longer serves me nor does it serve my brothers & sisters! I am confident that love is the way! I will focus my attention on love, peace, light, and harmony…even when things try to get in the way of it. I must push forward and press on with patience, diligence, consistency, and persistency…. I must stand still and reflect when I have some remote feeling of fear. Since I re-learned this principle yesterday I will focus and practice it and see where it leads me…. NO FEAR!
TODAY WHAT FEAR WILL YOU LET GO IN ORDER TO ALLOW GOD IN?
TODAY WHAT FEAR WILL YOU LEAVE AT THE ALTER?
WHAT WILL YOU DO OR SAY TO MAKE YOURSELF ACCOUNTABLE FOR LETTING GO THAT FEAR AND ALLOW LOVE TO FIX IT?
GIVE YOUSELF SOMETHING SILLY TO REMIND YOU LIKE .... flying purple bears... to get you off that fear and to a mind that's clear!...
What will be your catchy phrase?